Mood:
specialNow Playing: "Lady and the Tramp 2 : Scamp's Adventure" - DVD rental
...to what got us started in the first place. I'm still 'blah' for the most part, but I find myself looking at my old Barbie patterns, dusting off Shinobu and Inaba, thinking of why I left them and all their friends for so long. Sure, there were new, glamorous dolls. And old childhood favorites, and customizations, and...well, there were dolls ! But I could never bring myself to thin the herds past what I already have.
I think I got over-involved at first. I was a member of numerous doll groups, all of which fell prey to bragging and in-fighting, I was as guilty as anyone else. And when I realized it, I hated myself for it, and by extention, the dolls. I may be a simple person, but I'm a complicated woman, huh ? I bought darn near everything I could find, too, even stuff I didn't particularly like, but it was cheap enough, and hey, 'Friend X' on 'Group Y' spends that every other Saturday, twice over !
Then my life changed, and I did, too. When the time comes that your entire family's life has to fit into one 6' x 8' moving trailer, it becomes readily apparent what's really important and what isn't. My dolls were important, and I soon found myself again hoarding and searching for the bits and pieces I left behind, twice over and then some. When I would go out for hours every week looking for more, but never found the time to play with what I already had...well, something was wrong. And I put those dolls down to figure it out, and didn't really pick them up again. Donated most of my 'finds', one charity pick up at a time.
Sometimes I thought of giving them up entirely. But I couldn't. I knew someday I'd want or even possibly need them again. Maybe this week is that time. Maybe tomorrow, I'll want to remake Elphie's bed - I've been pretty chameleon-like lately. Halfway convinced I'm mentally writing My Dolls, My Self in one unoccupied lobe. But the concept makes sense, we are our hobbies, after all. And I think I'm ready to be sixth scale again. I made a lot of mistakes when I was first starting out - gosh, at one point I had over a hundred and twenty dolls ! I bought a lot of junk, and made some ugly everythings.
I think I know what I like now, without some doll pundit telling me what I should collect - heck, I don't collect 'em ! I'm ready to let my dolls be me, and enjoy being my dolls. Sounds silly, but I think it'll be fun !
Plus, we're in for a major snowstorm this weekend. What better time to play ? We have plenty of food and supplies - even movies and junk food. Long as the power doesn't go out, we're good. And I can enjoy.
Enjoying what you once neglected is a rare thing. And I intend to have a blast doing it !
