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a-okNow Playing: Dearest Son snoring, CPU fan whirrr...
Hiya.
Didn't mean to scare anyone Sunday - there was a lot going on, and my sprained psyche decided I needed to deal with it all NOW ! Most of it's the usual 'How can I be 40 years old already ? I still haven't figured Life out yet, and at least half of it's over ?' thing that most humans get, one way or another.
Part of it is the also-usual family stuff, a wicked cold that waylaid all of us, and coming to the quiet realization that, no matter what's next, we'll find a way to deal with it. Always have, always will. That is Life, now that I think about it.
Part of it is knowing I don't really fit in anywhere around me. My religious affiliation is atypical, I'm rather large, I play with dolls and read Japanese comic books... usually I celebrate diversity in any form. For some reason, it was very alienating this weekend. I felt so adrift ! So, of course, I had to take it apart and examine it from a few thousand angles until I got tired of it, smacked it back together, and went back to living. All this introspection gets exhausting. Believe it or not, even I get tired of thinking about me after a while.
I'm being over-simple, as I doubt you'd want a tiptoe through my tribulations when you probably have your own. There's a time in life where everyone takes stock and looks around, and where they go next is determined by what they see. I usually get this every Fall, but it's never been this intense and painful before. I'm still undecided about some things, but it's not a huge issue anymore. Life does have a way of going on, even while you're trying to figure yours out !
Anyway, so all that up there won't be a total waste of your time, here's a new photo :
Doesn't Cindy (Disney Lil' Princess Cinderella, Playmates) look so cutely 'goth' in her new sweater ? Color's off a bit - the spiderweb is actually gold thread, not orange, but it looks great anyway. This particular sweater came from Dollar Tree today. It was originally on a cheap stuffed bear, and comes in several designs and color combinations.
How cheap was the bear ? Well, the bear's chest under the sweater wasn't sewn closed ! That's right, it's really an autopsy bear, or maybe a horror-movie victim, ready for action !
But I think it was simply a cheap toy. Still, pulling out stuffing while removing the sweater was a unique experience I hope I don't repeat with the next ones. I'm definitely returning to DTree tomorrow - to get sweaters for Belle and Ariel, and also Crissy. It fits her, if a bit short in length, so it'll probably fit Isabella, too. I may split the sweaters down the back and add snaps so they go on the dolls easier. There's some 'torso bulk' (i.e., the sweater is a bit rounder than the dolls) that would be eliminated that way, and improve the fit, as well.
Dearest Son is still sick, so we went to the doctor today. Yes, it's just a cold, but the poor dear was up at night coughing this week, he coughed so hard last night, he threw up and couldn't stop coughing. We cleared the possibility of pneumonia or other ailments, and got a prescription. He's doing much better, but I worry about him going back to school tomorrow. He can't wait, after being stuck at home with Momma, and knowing it's School Picture day - and there's two new Cars outfits in the closet ! He's actually rather vain about clothes when they're his favorite designs and characters.
I bought a new (second-hand) cabinet that, with judicious shuffling, improved the storage in the Studio, and even opened up a bit more floor space. I'd been looking for something to re-do the fabric storage with, but all I could find in my price range was a TV stand ! I tabled (ha-ha) the notion for a while, but Tuesday I found a glorious 36" long open-face cabinet (like a long, squat bookshelf) with an adjustable shelf at GoodWill for $7. Some dings, but once it's buried in material and notions, who'd notice ? That took up most of Tuesday while Son was in school.
It almost makes me want to sew again, and soon ! :) I've really missed it. Hopefully, this weekend, I can get back to it. I think, sometimes, we have to 'give up' stuff we love for a bit, so we can appreciate having it to enjoy all over again.
That said, I would have loved to see the look on Son's teacher's face this week. We did a family 'scrapbook' assignment, which included bits for everyone's hobbies. I pasted photos of Beloved Hubby's paintings and guitars, and Son's trains and Herbies, and for mine, a shot of all the dolls, and the one of Elphie and Fiyero posed by my sewing machine, with the note, "Mommy has 55 dolls ! She loves sewing for them, and even has a website all about them".
His teacher probably concluded that it explains some of Son's behavior...
